Confuse

I get it. U hated me ... Then why are u still denying saying that u doesn't hate me when u really did hate me. The one who started the problem was me. Second is her. U r just an innocent guy who doesn't know what is happening around the world. U choose to believe her not me. Why r u so innocent. Didn't I tell u not to trust ppl so much ?? I guess I am the one who spoil u. I make u trust me and thn like what u say " I make use of u " which is not true at all ... I swear I didn't use u. I love u with all my heart. I didn't control u. All of this was coz I love u ... I get jealous I love u ... I control u coz I wanted to be the first in ur life .. I wanted to be the girl u love and only u care about. U know I like to think too much. I am scared ppl might take u away from me that is why I " control " u. Now there is someone who is taking u away from me. I know that and I can't do anything coz u don't believe in me anymore. U believe her. U choose to believe her lies. Maybe she is the one who told u I " use " u. But why do u believe her ?? What did I do to make u think I " use " u. Am I that bad ?? And ya. U r happy without me .. So now what am I going to do ?? Die ?? If I die will u believe I really did love u not using u ?? Do u know I am holding on ?? I am trying to be strong for now so that I won't fail my exam ?? After my exam I will totally break down I swear. Because of exam I am holding on and being strong. It is not coz I can live without u. I miss u everyday every sec. What must I do so that u will believe me agn ?? Do I look that bad in ur eye ?? I wanted to tell u all this but u won't bother to listen anyway .... 

True story

Now I got it. U change the whole story ar ?? Wow pro. Such a pro bitch. How many time u did tht alr ar ?? So clever hor. Say until make me believe u. Hahahha. I didn't knew u were really a bitch. I tot u r a good fren to me. Ya. I only got myself to blame. Now I know the whole story ... I will bring u down. Don't worry. Revenge will come back to u

Attention

I am trying my best to get his attention to me or maybe ATLEAST care abit abt me like how he care abt other girls ... " u and him break up alr. No point loving him. Forget him. Find another guy. " WTF. I didn't treat this rs like a game. Do u know how much I miss u ?? U think I can live without u ? I am just holding on ... After n Lvl I will show u whether I can live happily without u or not ...

Desperate ??

Yes I am desperate. Desperate for him .. I want him and only him .. If there is this guy who is much more handsome thn him and more rich thn him and take good care of me , I still dw to be with the guy. Coz in my eye , only u r perfect baby ... Only I feel safe in ur hand .... When will u come back ...

Moving on ??

I can't concentratr on studies ... Like that how pass my n Lvl .... I just miss him everyday. Wanting to go out with him and study with him ... Will he allow me to go study with him like last time again ?? Haiss ... I can't seek to move on. Friends scold me everyday coz I everytime talk abt him ... But I really can't tak it anymore ... Just miss him so so much ...

Mine ??

Will u be mine again ?? Lol even though I know the answer , I still wanna ask u ... Ya we r young. Too young to find true love. Too young for a serious rs. But do u know ?? When u t beside me , I feel safe. Calling u my bf make me proud and ur hug make me feel tht u will protect me forever. I feel happy around you. You r my entire world. U r this kind of person to me. How can I let u go ?? Ya. I hav so many bf before. But I nev truly love them. U r my first love. U r not my first bf but u r my last. I am serious. Until now I know myself tht I can't find another guy who can treat me like u do ... And I am ur first love too correct ?? U even dream of marrying me in the future. I don't believe u don't love me anymore ... But I dk why u insist on breaking up and leaving me ... I still love u alot alot. If I tell u all this , u will tell me " forget everything I said last time " " forget about me " " hate me " but I can't. I really can't. I will never ever forget u and I will never ever forget about our memories. If ppl can so easily forget each other , then what are love quotes and love songs for ?? What are all those sad lyrics for ??

Without u ..

Living without u is horrible. I can't anymore .. Can I die ?? I miss u so much ... When I hear u calling me baby last time , make me think back of everything .... I love u so much ... Please come back ... I am suffering down here ... Coz of other girls u can down down and meet them but u alw give excuses to meet up with me. What did I do really very wrong that u hate me so much ?? I want u back. I want u to love me back like last time ... Pls baby ... I really can't live without u ... I am feeling very hurt .... I only feel comfortable around u ... U know me the best. U should know I really can't live without u ... Pls baby ....

Miss u ..

"I miss u. Can u come back to me ?? What must I do to make u come back to me ?? Pls look at my way. I am feeling very miserable. " I wanna tell u all this and beg u again for patch back but will u ?? Everyday when I sleep , I dreamt tht u ask me for patch back. But why in real life u ignore me more and more ?? What did I do wrong so much that u hate me so much now ... Do u think I hav forgotten all about our memories ?? No. I still rmb every single things. But guess u hav forgotten. I could not tell u coz u told u me forgot all about these. I can't. Forever I can't. Guess u are happy with ur that new fren which is a girl. I wish u all the best for ur n Lvl .... And I will never ever forget u ... Coz I really love u ....

Memories ....

Idk why everytime I think back of our memories. When u totally forgotten about it. Can u tell me what I did wrong tht u hate me so much now ?? I have no idea. I didn't take revenge on u whenever u did bad things to me but u can't take small mistake ?? I can't possibly be a perfect girl rite. It was just a small mistake and u become a different person towards me ... What did I do wrong pls. ? I really miss our memories ....

Bitch

How well do u know him to judge me am him rs ?? For ur goodness sake. U and him only started to talk when we nt tgt alr which is like 2 month only. And u tell me u can judge ?? Oh hahah funny. Come I clap for u. I know him for 1 year plus pls. I don' hate u. I just dislike u when u started to flirt with him. Now u r making me to hate u. Because u make him close to u. You said what ?? U can stop talking to him but u can't stop him talking to u ?!? HAHAHHAH. IF u didn't start a topic he won't talk to u. I am not trying to be on his side but I know he is not so despo. He can stay not talking to girls when he tgt with me why now can't ?? The answer is so simple. IT IS BECAUSE YOU FUCKING GO AND TALK TO HIM FIRST. Did u hav fun talking to him and laughing with him ?? I wish u the best. Continue having fun for now. There is alw this thing called "revenge " how many rs u break ?? Karma will come back to u one. And when tht day come , I will just look at u and ask u "how does it feel like to get hurt by a guy u love so much ?? " hahahha. U should ATLEAST experience ma. Lets happily wait for the day

Tears ...

Tears keep flowing down and he didn't know. I don't want him know too. He might get angry. He wouldn't care. He can dont care abt me but why I can't ?? Am I that bad ? Tell me what I did wrong .. I will change ...

love ???

Why people dont understand how much i am hurtin down here ?? All they say is " u can forget him . U r just not trying . " They dk the hurt i am feeling . I love him . So so much .. but ... if he is happier without me , okay .. i will let him go . Jut coz i let him go dosent mean I dont love him anymore . Just because i am laughing dosent mean i am happy . No matter how much i try to forget him, he will alw come to my mind . I just love him so much . why he dont understand . If only he knew how much i am hurting. He may think i am acting by crying infront of him but i am really not acting . U use to wipe away my tears for me but now ?? U dont even care about me anymore .. I just wanna die . But i am scared the pain might follow me all the way . He may be happy tht i am not inside this world anymore but i am scared i might still feel the pain after i die .. If only he know how muvh i am hurting and come back to me ...

hurt hurt hurt ..

Why must he hurt me ? Why must he replace me with another girl ? What did i do wrong to deserve all this. I believed in love becasue of him . I laugh all because of him .. now i am hurt because of him . He is happy seeing me hurt . he broke my heart and he is happy laughing with girls , dont care about my feeling ? where is the guy who love me so much ? Where is the guy who alw care about me ? where did he go ?? Can i get him back ? i still cant forget him and i am hurting so much