Lifeless ....

I wanna go back to the time where I cry is only coz I can't get my sweet and forgetting all the sadness once I get the sweet and it only takes like 1 min to forget it. I also want to forget u ....  Didn't text u coz I tot u will realised tht u still need me and miss me ... But I am the one getting hurt in the end ..... What should I do ?? I just wan to die ....